Wednesday, September 4, 2013

So, I think it is time to give this blogging thing a whirl again! I want something written of our long days and short years to look back on later!! So, since the last time I blogged, my life has been turned upside down, inside out and right side up!! I gave birth, via emergency csection on January 18, 2013 to a beautiful, perfect baby boy named Jackson Lee. He is an absolute joy and is so fun!! It, of course, was the hightest of highs for the year 2013. On April 25, 2013 I lost my dad due to complications from diabetes, renal failure and heart failure. It was the lowest of lows. Let me back up, on Halloween 2012, I received a phone call from my dad while at work, it was lunch time, and he stated that he was in the ER due to chest pains, but that he was fine. 1 week later, he was having a triple bypass, not many of us thought he’d wake up from the surgery. In fact, he wasn’t able to come off the ventilator for 2 ½ days. It was the day of my baby shower that they were able to wean him off of it. The struggle w as over…or so we thought. This would begin a very long 6 months of hospital stays, rehab, home and back to the hospital and rehab. It would end with us bringing him home one April day, and him passing from this life on a Thursday afternoon. Much of the 6 months, he was like a patient with dementia, even living in the Alzheimer’s’ unit of the rehab. Many days I fight feelings of anger that he really never got to know Jackson. He knew I had him and was in his right mind when I did have him, but when Jackson was 3 weeks old is when dad went back into the hospital for the VRE infection. I miss him so bad it literally hurts sometimes. I am able to think of the funny, stupid things he did and smile however. They just got his headstone put up this past week, it looks so nice and I am so happy it is there!! We (my siblings and I) went over to his house yesterday and finished cleaning it out. Jackson is growing like a little weed and crawling everywhere!! He like to pull cords and be in the kitchen, he’s starting to hear “Jackson, no-no” and “Jackson, momma said no” quite frequently!!! I took him to the dr last week and he weighed 19 pounds and 1 oz!! Big Boy!! I also bought him a big boy carseat this weekend and he’s starting to set in it. I think he likes it a little better than his infant carrier.